The Unknown God

As has been stated before I was brought up in the Mormon faith, and from a young age I was instilled with the beliefs in God that are common with the members of that church. I led my life the way a Mormon should, and prayed to my God. As I lived and prayed I felt that I was living according to Gods plan, and because I felt good about Mormonism this meant to me that the church must be true.

Despite the faith I once held I had always questioned the validity of my belief. Sure I would say that I knew the Church was true, but I really only felt that it was and I knew it.

While I have left the beliefs I once held I still spend much time pondering the existence God, or gods, and that of a spiritual world. It is the sort of thing I want to believe in yet my rational mind holds me back.  Why should I believe in something that I have no real evidence for? Truly aside from my feelings I have no evidence for things that I have believed in. In Mormonism you are taught to pray to know the truth of something, and that the power of the Holy Ghost would testify to you that it was true. For a long time I believed that I had that answer, but since then I have searched for spirituality elsewhere.

I have read books explaining different belief systems and talked to people to learn about others still. I have tried praying to many gods, and I felt just as good if not better praying to these gods then I did to the one I had been taught to pray to from childhood. Does this mean that all of the religions I’ve looked into and all the gods I’ve prayed to are real and true? Of course not, but this also doesn’t mean that they are all or any of them false, it simply means that I do not know nor can I know if they are true with the information that I have up to this point.

I still feel a draw to have a spiritual understanding, and I will continue looking.   While I have not settled on a belief system I do know this, unless I have empirical evidence to support my spiritual understanding I can never again in good conscious  try to make others believe my spiritual opinions as I have in the past.

Until next time,

XR4-IT